From The Pen Of Peter Paul Markin- From The “Search
For The Blue-Pink Great American West Night” Sketches California Dreamin’,
Maybe, January, 1970
I waved good-bye to Angelica, once again, as she drove
off from the ocean front campsite that we had been camping out on, the Leo
Carrillo State Park near Point Magoo about fifty miles or so north of Los
Angeles. She would now drive the road back in her green Ford Hertz unlimited
mileage, mid-size rental (paid for, as she explained one night, by her parents
whose golden age of the automobile-frenzied minds counted it as a strike
against me, a very big strike, that when I had “kidnapped” their daughter on
the 1969 blue-pink summer road west down in Steubenville, Ohio I didn’t even
have a car). She planned (on my advice) to drive back mostly on the
ocean-abutted, white-capped waves smashing against jagged ancient shore rocks,
Pacific Coast Highway down through Malibu and Santa Monica to take one last
look at the Pacific Ocean as the final point on her first look ocean trip, on
the way to LAX to take a flight back to school days Muncie, Indiana. <br
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She will also be driving back to the airport and
getting on that miserable plane east knowing as I do since we talked about it
incessantly during her stay, that some right things, or at least some maybe
right things, like our being together last summer heading free west and for
these two January weeks in front of the sea, our homeland the sea, before her
classes started again, got caught up in the curious web of the human drama. For
no understandable reason. Hey, you already knew this if you have ever had even
that one teeny-weeny, tiny, minuscule love affair that just had no place to go,
or no time to take root, or just got caught out there in the blue-pink night.
Yah, you know that story. But let me take some minutes to tell you this one. If
it seems very familiar and you “know” the plot line well then just move on.
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To get you up to speed after Angelica and I had been
on the heartland America hitchhike road (and places like Moline, Neola, and
Omaha are nothing but the heartland, good or bad), she, well, she just got
tired of it, tired of the lacks, tired of the uncertainties of the road. Hell, hell-on-wheels, I was getting tired of
it myself except I was a man on a mission. The nature of that mission is
contained in the words “search for the blue-pink great American West night” so
the particulars of that mission need not detain us here. So in Neola, Iowa,
Neola, Iowa of all places aided by “fairy grandmother” Aunt Betty, who ran the
local diner where Angelica worked to help make us some dough to move on, and her
own sense of dreams she called it quits back in September. Aunt Betty drove us
to Omaha where Angelica took the bus back east, Indiana east from Nebraska, to
hometown Muncie and I hit Interstate 80 West headed first to Denver before the
snows, or so I hoped. <br />
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Honestly, although we exchanged addresses and
telephone numbers where messages could be left, or where we could speak to each
other (her parents’ house not being one of them), and made big plans to reunite
in California in January during her school break, I didn’t really think that
once we were off the road together that those plans would pan out. <br />
Now I may not remember all my reasoning at the time
this far removed, the now of my telling this story many years later, but I had
had enough relationships with women to sense this one was good, very good,
while it lasted but it could not survive the parting. Not one of those overused
“absence makes the heart grow fonder” things you hear about. And, truth to
tell, because I thought that was the way things would play out, I started
getting focused back on Boston Joyel more than a little as I walked a lot,
stood at the shoulder of the hitchhike road a lot, and fitfully got my rides on
the road west. <br />
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But see this is where you think you have something
figured out just so and then it goes awry. Angelica called, left messages, sent
letters, even a telegram, to Denver (to the commune where, Jack and Mattie, my
traveling companions on the final leg west whom I had met earlier in the spring
on a different trip down to D.C., were staying). She sent more communications
in early December as well saying that she was still coming to Los Angeles where
we three stayed with a few artistic friends of Jack and Mattie’s. Cinema-crazed
artistic friends, including one budding film director who, moreover, had great
dope connections right into the heart of Mexico. This is where they would stay while I planned
to push the hitchhike road north heading to San Francisco. <br />
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I once, in running through one of the scenes in this
hitchhike road show, oh yah, it was the Neola scene, mentioned that in Angelica
“what you saw was what you got, what she said was what she meant, and that both
those were good things indeed.” And so if I had thought about it a minute of
course she was coming to California in January and staying with me for her two
week break, and maybe longer. So when January came she contacted me though John
and Mattie, who like I said were now staying with this very interesting
experimental film-maker, David, in the Hollywood hills and canyons. I started
back south to L.A. in order to meet her at the airport. From there I had it planned that we would go
to Point Magoo and camp out like in the “old days” at an ocean front state
park. <br />
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Needless to say when I greeted her at LAX we both were
all smiles, I was in more than all smiles mode, because I had been “stag” for a
while and she was, well, fetching as always, or almost always. Here though is
where I noticed that the road really is not for everyone. In Neola, and later
getting on the bus back home in Omaha, poor Angelica looked pretty haggard but
at the airport, well like I said, she was fetching. <br />
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And, guess what, she brought her sleeping bag that we
got for her in a Lexington, Kentucky Army-Navy Store when we first seriously
started on the road west. And the first thing she said about it was, referring
to a little in-joke between us, “it fits two, in a pinch.” Be still my heart.
So we gathered up her stuff, did the airport exit scene (easier at LAX in those
days than now) and picked up the outside shuttle to the Hertz car rental
terminal. We were jabbering away like crazy, but best of all, we were like, a
little, those first days last summer back in that old-time Steubenville truck
stop diner and cabin when I first met her. <br />
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Of course, part of the trip for her, part of what she
went as far as she could with me on the hitchhike road for, was to get to
California and see what it was all about, and what the ocean was all about
since she was a heartland girl who had never seen the ocean before. When we got
to Point Magoo she flipped out, she flipped out mostly at the idea that we
would stay, could stay right on the beach in front of the ocean. And just like a
kid, just like I did when I was kid and saw the ocean, when she saw the
Pacific, she jumped right in. Hell, she was so excited she almost got caught in
a small riptide. I had to go drag her out. I won’t say we had fun every minute
of those weeks acting out our ocean nomad existence, but most minutes, and I
could see that she felt the same way. <br />
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Naturally, as time drifted away toward her return
flight date we talked more and more about what the future, if any, held in
store for us. She was adamant about not going back on the road, she was adamant
as well that she wanted to finish school and make something of herself. I had
no serious defense against that practical wisdom. And, truthfully, I wasn’t,
toward the end of her stay, pushing the issue, partially because even I could
see that it made sense but also, we had had a “flare-up” over the Boston Joyel
question (I am being polite here). <br />
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But it was more than that; the flat out, hungry truth
was that I really didn’t know how to deal with a Midwestern “what you see is
what you get” woman like Angelica. I was more used to virtuous Irish Catholic
girls who drove me crazy as a kid getting me all twisted up about religion,
about nice girls, and about duplicity when I found out what the real score was
with this type of young girl/ woman later. I was also, and Joyel was the
epitome of this type, totally in sync (well, as much as a man can be) with the
Harvard Square folksy, intellectual, abstract idealist,
let’s-look-at-everything-from-twenty-two different angles, what is the meaning
of human relationships 24/7 kind of woman. And fatally attracted to them (and
still am). This Angelica look at things only a couple of ways, let’s work
things out easy-like, heavens, let’s not analyze everything to the nth degree
flipped me out. Angelica was a breath of fresh air and, maybe, maybe, about ten
years later, and two divorces later to boot, I would have had that enough sense
god gave geese to hold onto her with both hands, tightly, very tightly. But I was
in my blue-pink search phase and not to be detoured. <br />
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Of course all this hard work of trying to understand
where we stood put a little crack in our reason for being together in the first
place. The search for, search for something. Maybe, for her, it was just that
life minute at the ocean and then on to regular life minutes out in the
thickets of the white picket fences. She never said it then in so many words
but that seemed to be the aim. And to be truthful, although I was only just
barely thinking about it at the time, as the social turmoil of the times got
weird, diffuse, and began to evaporate things started to lose steam. As we
were, seemingly, endlessly taking our
one-sided beatings as those in charge started a counter-offensive ( a counter-offensive
still going on) people, good people, but people
made of human clay nevertheless got tired of the this and that
existence, even Joyel. Joyel of Harvard Square folksy, intellectual, abstract
idealist, let’s-look-at-everything-from-twenty-two different angles, what is
the meaning of relationships 24/7 was also weary and wary of what was next and
where she fit into “square” society. Christ, enough of that, we know, or knew,
that song too well.<br />
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A couple of days before Angelica was to leave, and on
a day when the sun seemed especially bright, especially bright for then
smog-filled Los Angeles January, and warm, not resident warm but Boston and
Muncie warm, we sat like two seals
sunning ourselves in the glow of mother ocean she nudged me and asked me if I
had a joint. Now Angelica liked a little vino now and then but I can’t recall
her ever doing a joint (grass, marijuana, herb, ganja, whatever you call it in
your neck of the woods). So this is new. The problem, although not a big one in
ocean-side state park 1970 Southern California, was that I was not “holding.”
No problem though, a few spots down the beach was an old well-traveled, kind of
beat-up Volkswagen van that I knew, knew just as sure as I was standing on that
white sand beach, was “holding.” I went over, asked around, and “bingo” two
nice big joints came traveling with me back to our campsite. Oh, daddy, daddy
out in the be-bop blue-pink night thank you brother van man. For just a minute,
just that 1970 California minute, the righteous did inherit the earth.<br
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Back at our camp site Angelica awaited the outcome of
my quest, although she also wanted to wait until later, until the day’s sun
started going down a bit more to go into that smoke-filled good night. When that
later came Angelica was scared/ thrilled, as she tried to smoke the one I lit
up for her and started coughing like crazy, but that was nothing then.
Everybody, at least everybody I knew, went through that same baptism. But
Jesus, did we get mellow, that stuff, as was most stuff then, was primo, not
your ragweed bull stuff that ran the rounds later. And why should it have not
been so as we were so close to the then sane Mexican border of those days to
get the good stuff. <br />
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But all of this build-up over this dope scene is so
much filler, filler in those days when if you didn’t at least take a pipe full
(inhale or not, like it or not) you were a square “squared.” What the stuff did
for Angelica, and through Angelica to me, got her to open up a little. No, not
about family, or old boyfriends, or her this and that problems. No, but kind of
deep, kind of deep somewhere that she maybe didn’t know existed. Deep as I had
ever heard her speak before. She talked about her fate, the fate of the fates,
about what was going on in the world, no, not politics; she was organically
incapable of that. Mystics stuff, getting in touch with the sea homeland stuff,
earth mother stuff too in a way. Dope-edged stuff sure but when she compared
the splashing foam-flecked waves to some cosmic force that I forget how she put
it (remember I was dope-addled as well) then for just that moment, just that
moment when the old red-balled sun started to dip to the horizon on one of
those fairly rare days when one could see it meet the ocean I swear that Angelica knew, knew in her
heart, knew in her soul even, what the blue-pink American West dream stuff I
had bombarded her with was all about. That was our moment, and we both knew it. <br />
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So when leaving time came a couple of days later we
both knew, I think, as we packed up her things, including that well-used
sleeping bag, we had come to a parting of the roads. As I put her stuff in the
rental car she sweetly blurted out something I was also thinking, “I’ll always
remember that night we made the earth under the cabin in Steubenville shake.”
And I thought then I bet she will, although she forgot the part about the
making the roof of the cabin move too. And so there I was, waving as she drove
off to her Angelica dreams. And I never saw her again. <br />
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<b>Postscript</b>: That last statement
about never seeing her again is not exactly true. I have, at least up until a
few years ago, and you have probably too, seen her in films and magazines. I
don’t know all the later details, because I eventually lost contact with John
and Mattie after they went to Mexico and got caught up, got badly caught up in,
the small-time end of the international drug trade of the time, but Angelica
eventually moved out to California with her boyfriend, and connected with
David, the film-maker I mentioned before. And it seems I am a prophet for the
still and moving cameras caught that look, that look I sensed when I first met
Angelica, because she went on to have a successful small-part movie and
commercial-making career. She was not the in-your-face-beautiful leading lady
in the films but the who-was-that-other-good-looking-ah-fetching actress who
you started thinking about later and who really set your soul ablaze. The one
that would, if you knew her, set your silly, twisted philosophical head
straight after about two minutes with her. Or, if in a commercial, her look
told you that, yes, maybe you had better buy about a dozen of those widgets she
is selling although what on earth you will do with them is beyond me. Yah that
look, that Muncie fresh, guileless look. I hope, hope to high heaven, that she
got her version of the blue-pink night as well.
From The Pen Of Joshua Lawrence Breslin -When Be-Bop
Bopped In The Doo Wop Night- “Street Corner Serenade”- Olde Saco Style
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFkOVnblQr8&feature=related
<b>Click on the headline to link to a
<i>YouTube</i> film (From <i>American Bandstand</i>) of
The Classics performing the old time classic (I think originally from The Mills
Brothers) , <i>Till Then</i>. <br />
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Sure I have plenty to say about early rock ‘n’ roll,
now called the classic rock period in the musicology hall of fame. Heck, I
lived it and so did a lot of other people who now have time on their hands and
are just becoming “wise” enough to write a few things about those times since
they are safely behind us. Well, maybe safely behind us as you never know about
certain social and musical trends. Here is what is important though whether you
have, in your dotage, just seen Elvis walking, well, walking like a walking
daddy down your Main Street or like a million others just wishing that you
could get together enough quarters to wear that old jukebox down at Jimmy Jakes
Diner out (or wherever that beauty was located) like in those lazy hazy school
day afternoons. With that said I have in
the past spent a little time, not enough, considering its effect on us on the
doo-wop branch of the rock genre and want to expand on that here.
Part of the reason for not highlighting doo wop
separately, obviously, is that back in those mid-1950s jail-breakout days with
six millions flash songs running through my head and Elvis stealing all the
girls, directly or indirectly, I did not (and I do not believe that any other
eleven and twelve year olds did either), distinguish between let’s say early
Elvis, Carl Perkins, Eddie Cochran rockabilly-back-beat drive rock, Bo
Diddley-Chuck Berry black-based rock centered on a heavy rhythm and blues
backdrop, and the almost instrument-less (or maybe a soft piano or guitar
backdrop) group harmonics that drove Frankie Lymon, The Drifters, The Platters
doo-wop. All I knew was that it was not my parents’ music, praise be, not
close, and that moreover they got nervous, very nervous, ditto on the praise
be, anytime it was played out loud in their presence. Fortunately, some
sainted, sanctified, techno-guru developed the iPod of that primitive era, the
battery-driven transistor radio. No big deal, technology-wise by today’s standards,
but get this, you could place it near your ear and have your own private out
loud music without parental scuffling in the background. Yes, sainted,
sanctified techno-guru. No question. <br />
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What doo-wop did though down in our old-time working
class housing projects neighborhood, the heavily French-Canadian quarters
around Atlantic Avenue in Olde Saco up in oceanside Maine, and again it was not
so much by revelation as by trial and error, was allow us to be in tune with
the music of our generation without having to spend a lot of money on
instruments or a studio or any such. Where the hell would we have gotten the
dough for such things when papas were out of work, or were one step away as the
textile mills that have produced steady work heading south in search of cheaper
labor, and there was trouble just
keeping the wolves from the door. Sure, some kids, some kids like my home boy
elementary school, Olde Saco South,
boyhood friend Billie, William James Riley (mother, nee Dubois), were
crazy to put together cover bands with electric guitars (rented occasionally),
and dreams. Or maybe go wild with a school piano a la Jerry Lee Lewis, Little
Richard, or Fats Domino but those were maniac aficionados. Even Billie though,
when the deal went down, especially after hearing Frankie Lymon and The
Teenagers was mad to do the do of doo-wop and make his fame and fortune. <br
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I remember much later, maybe the early 1980s, being in
a New York City record shop, somewhere near Times Square, where they had a bin
full of doo-wop records and the cover art of one of the albums showed a group
of young black kids, black guys, who looked like they were doing their doo wop
on some big city street corner. And that makes sense reflecting the New York
City-derived birth of doo-wop and that the majority of doo-wop groups that we
heard on that battery-drive transistor AM radio were black. But the city, the
poor sections of the city, white or black, was not the only place where
moneyless guys and gals were harmonizing, hoping, hoping maybe beyond hope, to
be discovered and make more than just a 1950s musical jail-breakout of their
lives. Moreover, this cover art also showed, and shows vividly, what a lot of
us guys were trying to do-impress girls (and maybe vice versa for girl
doo-woppers but they can tell their own stories). <br />
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Yes, truth to tell, it was about impressing girls that
drove many of us, Billie included, christ maybe Billie most of all, to mix and
match harmonies. And you know you did too (remember girls just switch around
what I just said). Yah, four or five guys just hanging around the back door of
the that summer vacation vacant elementary school on hot summer nights, nothing
better to do, no dough to do things, maybe a little feisty because of that, and
start up a few tunes. Billie, who actually did have some vocal musical talent,
usually sang lead, and the rest of us, well, doo-wopped. We knew nothing of
keys and pauses, of time, notes, or reading music we just improvised. (And I
kept my changing to teen-ager, slightly off-key voice on the low, on the very
low.)
Whether we did it well or poorly, guess what, as the
hot sun day turned into humid night, and the old sun went down just over the
hills, first a couple of girls, then a couple more, and then a whole bevy (nice
word, right?) of them came and got kind of swoony and moony. Most of them were
sticks (local term of art, pre-teen, just teen boy-man term of art signifying,
ah, signifying that mysterious transformation from boyish girl shape to womanly
shape occurring right before our eyes). And swoony and moony was just fine.
Especially when one stick turning to shape Rosamund, Rosamund Genet, came
around one night toward the end of summer and I got sore eyes just looking in
her direction (and I think she peeked in my direction that night too). And we
all innocent, innocent dream, innocent when we dreamed, make our virginal
moves. But, mainly, we doo-wopped in the be-bop mid-1950s night. And a few of
the songs from that Time Square- seen album could be heard in that airless
night. Songs like <i>Deserie</i>, The Charts; <i>Baby
Blue</i>, The Echoes; <i>Till Then</i>, The Classics;
and, <i>Tonight (Could Be The Night)</i>,
The Velvets. Yes, long live doo wop out in the be-bop night.
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