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Bard Of The North Adamsville High School Class Of 1964?, “Say What?”
For
Linda, Class Of 1964
Peter Paul Markin, Class Of 1964, comment:
Peter Paul Markin, Class Of 1964, comment:
Recently
someone from my high school class, Linda, whose last name shall be omitted not
out of consideration for her sensibilities but rather to avoid the long
litigation which I am sure would ensue if I mentioned her last name and others
clamored on and on about why their names were not included, wrote an e-mail, a
friendly e-mail I assume, asking me if I, with this never-ending (my word, she
just said “a lot”) stream of stories about the old days at early 1960s North
Adamsville High, was trying to be the bard (her word, not mine) of the Class of
1964. I rapidly replied with this short answer- “What, are you
kidding?”(Although I wish I had said the faux- hip, “say what?,” used in
the headline to this entry). Later though, after I thought about it for a while,
I realized that I did (and do) mean to be ONE of the latter-day voices of our
class. Why? I have, with all due modesty, the perfect resume for the job. Here
it is:
I belonged
to no in-school clubs. I couldn’t (can’t) sing so the glee club was out although
I was tempted to join, low-voice, whisper-voice join, white shirt, string tie,
black chinos and all because a certain Rosemary I had eyes for sang a very
sweet alto, or whatever they call that sing-song voice that made me think of
flowered-fields, picnic baskets and, well, it never worked out so I will just
say I was smitten, lonely smitten. (Let me leave it at Rosemary, no last names,
again since I am still wary of that litigation from certain Susans, Lindas, and
Anns who might still feel hurt not to see their names in lights here. Even
though if I had approached them in those days I would have received the
deep-freeze, a big time deep-freeze, and been dismissed out of hand.)
The
same was true for the school newspaper, the unlamented North Star,
although in that case it was a Carol whom I would have joined in order to cub
report next to (ditto, on leaving out the last name, okay) except in her case
she had a big bruiser of a boyfriend who just happened to play right tackle for
the championship Red Raiders school football team. And he (I will use no first
or last name for that monster even now and not because I fear litigation, no
because I fear for my life, and rightly so) made it very clear one time when I
actually talked to her for more that about a minute that unless I had a
interest in doormats I had better take my ragamuffin, low- rent act elsewhere.
Moreover, I doubt, very seriously doubt, that after about two days I could have
kept a straight face while performing my duties as a cub reporter reporting on
such hot spot topics as the latest cause bake sale, the latest words of wisdom
from Miss (Ms.) Sonos, the newspaper’s faculty advisor, about whatever was on
her dippy mind, or “shilling” to drum up an audience for the next big school
play. Not “the world is my beat” Peter Paul Markin. No way.
I,
moreover, belonged to no after-school organizations like the chess club,
science club, bird-watchers or any of those other odd-ball activities that
couldn’t rate enough to get the school-day imprimatur. See, after school was
“Frankie’s time,” Frankie Riley held forth inside, in front of, and sometimes
behind, Salducci’s Pizza Parlor “up the Downs” (remember that term?) and I was
none other than one of Frankie’s corner boys. Not only that but I was his
“shill,” his scribe, busy promoting every scheme, every idea, every half-idea,
and every screwy notion that made its way into his ill-formed brain. So who
would have had time for a “scoop” on the amount raised at some bake sale, what
that nutty Sonos had to say on astrophysics or U.F.O’s, or the virtues of some
ill-conceived, poorly-acted school play.
I
freely admit, freely admit now, after a lifetime of turmoil, of struggle over
ten thousand ideas, the fire of a thousand half-ideas, and a few thousand
thought-provoking books that I had known about the Great Books Club held after
school I might have been drawn to that. I spend much time later in life
struggling with ideas that could just as easily have been thrashed out then.
And, of course, the other problem was that if I had known about the club the
only girl that I remember that might have been a member of the club and that I
might have wanted to talk to was Sarah (remember we are not using last names in
case you forgot), and she was, well, just a stick although I liked to talk to
her in class. A lot.
Nor
did I belong to church-affiliated clubs, christ no, I was on that long doubting
Thomas road away from churchly concerns. Oh, except for one Minnie, yah, sweet
Irish rose Minnie, whom I used to sit a few rows behind at 8:00 AM Mass at
Sacred Heart and stare at her ass on Sunday. But I could have done that
anywhere, and did according to her best friend, Jean, who sat behind me in
class and has stated for the record in public as recently as a couple of years
ago that I did it every time I could in the corridor and that Minnie knew about
it, and kind of liked the idea although a lot of good that knowledge does me
now. Moreover Phil Larkin (it’s okay to use his last name because I have
already talked about “Foul-Mouth” Phil before, plenty, and he is in no position,
no position this side of a four by six cell, to even spell the word litigation
in my presence), yah, Phil Larkin moved in on her way before I got up the nerve
to do more than watch her sway.
Ditto
organizations like the YMCA, Eagle Scouts, or any of those service things.
Corner boy life declared such things as strictly corn- ball. Not that I had
anything, per se, against joining organizations. What I was though, and
this was the attraction of rough-edged, snarly corner boy-ness for me, was
alienated from anything that smacked of straight up, of normal, of, well
square. And everything mentioned above, except for the girl part. And in that
girl part maybe not including a stick like Sarah although I really did like to
talk to her in class. She had some great big ideas, and knew how to articulate
them. I hope she still does. Yes, I know what you are thinking. Instead of
watching Minnie sway 24/7 I could have been cheek to cheek with Sarah,
discussing stuff and... Don’t you think I haven’t thought about that, christ?
I
also played no major sport that drove a lot of the social networking of the
time (I am being polite using that term here: this is a family-friendly site
after all. Isn’t it? If it isn’t then upon notice I will be more than happy to
“spill the beans” about what was said, how it was said, and by whom about who
"did" what every school day Monday morning before school in the boys’
lav, or the girls’ lave for that matter. And, again I will not worry in the
least about litigation. Hey, the truth is a powerful defense.). The sports that
did drive me throughout my high school career, track and cross-country, were
then very marginal sports for “nerds,” low-rent fake athletes, and other
assorted odd-balls, and I was, moreover, overwhelmingly underwhelming at them,
to boot. I have recently moved to have my times in various track events
declared classified information under a national security blanket just so
certain prying eyes like ace-runner Bill Bailey and, naturally, that nemesis
Frankie Riley do no gain access to that information for their own nefarious
purposes.
I
did not hang around with the class intellectuals, although I was as obsessed
and driven by books, ideas and theories as anyone else at the time, maybe more
so. I was, to be polite again, painfully shy around girls, as my furtive desire
for Minnie mentioned above attests to, and therefore somewhat socially
backward, although I was privately enthralled by more than one of them. Girls,
that is. And to top it all off, to use a term that I think truly describes me
then, I was something of a ragamuffin from the town's wrong side of the track,
the notorious Blank Street section over by the bridge to Boston. Oh, did I
mentioned that I was also so alienated from the old high school environment
that I either threw, or threatened to throw, my yearbook in the nearest river
right after graduation; in any case I no longer have it.
Perfect,
right? No. Not a complete enough resume? Well how about this. My family, on my
mother’s side, had been in the old town since about the time of the “famine
ships” from Ireland in the 1840s. I have not gone in depth on the family
genealogy but way back when someone in the family was a servant of some sort,
to one of the branches of the presidential Adams family. Most of my relatives
distance and far, went through the old high school. The streets of the old town
were filled with the remnants of the clan. My friends, deny it or not and I
sometimes did, the diaspora "old sod" shanty Irish aura of North
Adamsville was in the blood.
How
else then can one explain, after a forty year hiatus, this overweening desire
of mine to write about the “Dust Bowl” that served as a training track during
my running days. (The field situated just across the street from North
Adamsville Middle School, of unblessed memory. Does anyone really want to go
back in early teen life? No way.) Or write on the oddness of separate boys’ and
girls’ bowling teams during our high school years, as if mixed social contact
in that endeavor would lead to s-x, or whatever. Or my taking a “cheap” pot
shot at that mysterious “Tri-Hi-Y” (a harmless social organization for women
students that I have skewered for its virginal aspirations, its three purities;
thoughts, acts, and deeds, or something like that). Or the million other things
that pop into my head these days.
Oh
yah, I can write, a little. Not unimportant for a bard, right? The soul of a
poet, if somewhat deaf to the sweetness of the language. Time and technology
has given us an exceptional opportunity to tell our collective story and seek
immortality and I want in on that. Old Walt Whitman can sing of America, I will
sing of the old town, gladly.
Well,
do I get a job? Hey, you can always “fire” me. Just “click” and move on.
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