***Out In The Be-Bop, Be-Bop 1960s Night- The Great
San Francisco Summer Of Love Explosion
From The Pen Of Peter Paul Markin
[Peter Paul Markin, in telling
somebody else’s story from the old days in the working class neighborhoods of
North Adamsville where he grew up, or rather when somebody else, threating
murder and mayhem, wanted him to tell their
stories usually gave each and every one of that crew enough rope to hang themselves
without addition comment. In the case of one Foul-Mouth Phil Larkin he felt, as
an elementary act of social hygiene and an effort to keep the facts straight, a
need to make such comment which are contained within brackets below.]
*******Phil Larkin, just then road-weary “Far-Out” Phil Larkin, for those who want to trace his evolution from North Adamsville early 1960s be-bop night “Foul-Mouth” Phil, then the vocal terror of every mother’s daughter from six to sixty now morphed into full-fledged merry prankster, sat on a June such-and-such 1967 be-bop night a nameless San Francisco.
[Markin: Phil, despite his
lewd language was, occasionally, a secret delight of some girls, secret delight
of one Minnie Callahan, damn him she had been my girl after all, for just one
example of such girl classmates, proper Catholic novena and rosary bead back in
that North Adamsville night.]
Alongside him sat new
conquest, not conquered with his old time wicked corner boy devil-inspired
charm but with mere patter (and dope), new flame Butterfly Swirl met on a La
Jolla beach a month or so back, not entirely by accident. And next to her his
old flame, old in that quickly met moment, this merry prankster bus flame met
in Ames, Iowa last year, accidentally except to those cosmically inclined and
Phil was not one of them not one bit, Luscious Lois. Lois, however, now
transformed into Lilly Rose, transformed at the flip of a switch, as was her
way when some whim, or some word in the air, hit her dead center. Along the
road west, again by whimsy she had been variously, Lupe Matin, Loretta Nova,
Lance (figure that one) Opal, and so on. (Phil just got to calling her honey,
or sweet pea, and left it at that)
[Markin: Sometime, but not
now, remind me to give you my take on this name-changing epidemic. Not only
were we re-inventing ourselves physically and spiritually but in our public
personas shedding our “slave names” much as some blacks were doing for more
serious reasons than we had at the time. Hell, I got caught up in it myself,
and was for a time, Blackie Saint James. Yes, remind me to flesh this whole
thing out.]
Yes, it had been one long
roller coaster year for Foul-Mouth as he drifted with the new age winds.
[Markin: Alright, let’s split the difference on his moniker since I knew him
way back when in that weird early 1960s corner boy night when he didn’t know
from nothing about which way the winds were blowin’, could have cared less
which way they were blowin’, or if they were,
and made fun of me, as did Frankie Riley, and a couple of others,
although not Sammy Russo, when I said some big changes were coming that would
throw off our school, work, green lawn little white house with picket fence,
two point four children, mongrel dog futures, and just call him Phil from here
on in. Foul-mouthed or far out he was some hell-bound character.] From the
bowels of despair rank no serious future retail clerk hustling means’
apparel up at Raymond’s Department Store
in slowing dying (dying from suburban mall-itis
then all the rage) Adamsville Center, harassed beyond endurance at home
for lacking some unfathomable ambition from dear mother, with an occasional
assist from dad (that ambition entailing pursuing some low-rent, GS-10,
government job with security unto the grave, egad), and a late sniffing of that
wind that this fellow corner boy had predicted was coming although he was vague
on the contours of that change Phil broke out one night.
Literally late one night, one
May 1966 night. Around two in the
morning, with his all his earthly belongings on his back in an old time World
War II army knapsack picked up at Bill’s Army &Navy Store Phil lit out like
Walt Whitman way back when to places unknown and Jack Kerouac and his gang just
a few years before for the coast, although if you had mentioned those names to
him then he would have stared blankly back at you. Maybe now too. But here,
let’s let Phil tell the story for a while about how he got to ‘Frisco and then
we’ll see what is up with him and his “family” (okay, okay, Butterfly Swirl and
Lilly Rose, if that is her name by the time we back) on that nameless 1967 San
Francisco hill:
“Hey, I am no slave to convention,
whatever the conventions are, but in those days I looked like a lot of young
guys. Longish hair, a beard, a light beard at the time, blue jeans, an army
jacket, sunglasses, a knapsack over my shoulder, and work boots on my feet.
Sandals would not come until later when I got off the road and was settled in a
“pad” [Markin: house, rented or maybe abandoned, apartment, hovel, back of a
“free” church, back of a store, whatever, a place to rest those weary bones, or
“crash”] in La Jolla and were, in any case,
not the kind of footwear that would carry you through on those back road
places you might find yourself in, places like Deadwood, Nevada at three in the
morning with a ten mile walk to the nearest real town in front of you. I
mention all this because that “look” gave me the cache to make it on the road
when I headed out of the house that Spring 1966 be-bop night after one final
argument with dear mother about where I was going, what was I going to do when
I got there, and what was I going to do for money. Standard mother fare then,
and now I suppose.
So short on dough, and long
on nerve and fearlessness then I started to hitchhike with the idea of heading
west to California like about eight million people, for about that same number
of reasons, have been heading there since the Spanish, or one of those old time
traveling by boat nations, heard about the place. Of course, nowadays I would not think to do
such a thing in such a dangerous world, unless I was armed to the teeth and
that would take a little edge off that “seeking the newer world” Markin has
been blabbing about since about 1960. But then, no problem, let’s get going.
Especially no problem when just a few
miles into my journey a Volkswagen mini-bus (or van, neither in the same league
as the yellow brick road school bus, no way, that I will tell you about later
but okay for a long ride, and definitely okay when you are in some nowhere,
nowhere Nebraska maybe, back road,
hostile territory dominate by squares, squares with guns and other evil implements
and they, the VW-ites, stoned, stoned to the heavens stop to ask you directions
because they are “lost” and invite you on board) stops on Route 128, backs up,
and a guy who looks a lot like me, along with two pretty young girls says,
“where are you heading?” (Okay, okay, Markin, young women, alright.) West, just west. And then the beautified
words, “Hop in.”
Most of the road until the
Midwest, Iowa is the Midwest, right was filled with short little adventures
like that. A mini-bus frolic for a few hours, or a few days. Maybe a few short
twenty miles non-descript square Chevy rides in between but heading west by
hook or by crook. Did I like it? Sure I did although I was pretty much an
up-tight working-class guy (that was what one of those pretty girls I just
mentioned on that first hitchhike ride out called me when I “passed” on smoking
a joint and, hell, she was from next door Clintondale for chrissakes) who liked
his booze, a little sex [Markin: Phil, come on now, a little?], and just
hanging around the old town waiting for the other shoe to drop. But I could
see, after a few drug experiences, no, not LSD, that I was starting to dig the
scene. And I felt every day that I was out of North Adamsville that I was
finally shaking off the layers of dust that I had acquired from that place.
Then one night, sitting in
the front seat of a big old Pontiac (not everybody, not every “hip” everybody
had the mini-bus, van, or school bus handy for their “search” for the great
American night), Big Bang Jane between us, the Flip-Flop Kid driving like god’s
own mad driver, smoking a joint, laughing with the couple in back, Bopper Billy
and Sweet Pea, we headed into a pay-as- you go roadside camp near Ames out in
Iowa. And at that campsite parked maybe five or six places over from where we
planted ourselves was god’s own copy of that day-glo merry prankster bus I
mentioned before. I flipped out because while I had hear about, and seen from a
distance, such contraptions I hadn’t been up close to one before. Wow!
Markin had it just about
right when he described that old bus after I told him about it:
“A rickety, ticky-tack,
bounce over every bump in the road to high heaven, gear-shrieking school bus.
But not just any yellow brick road school bus that you rode to various
educationally good for you locations like movie houses, half yawn, science
museums, yawn, art museums, yawn, yawn, or wind-swept picnic areas for some fool weenie roast, two yawns there too,
when you were a school kid. And certainly not your hour to get home daily grind
school bus, complete with surly driver (male or female, although truth to tell
the females were worst since they acted just like your mother, and maybe were
acting on orders from her) that got you through K-12 in one piece, and you even
got to not notice the bounces to high heaven over every bump of burp in the
road. No, my friends, my comrades, my brethren this is god’s own bus
commandeered to navigate the highways and by-ways of the 1960s come flame or
flash-out. Yes, it is rickety, and all those other descriptive words mentioned
above in regard to school day buses. That is the nature of such ill-meant
mechanical contraptions after all. But this one is custom-ordered, no, maybe
that is the wrong way to put it, this is “karma”-ordered to take a motley crew
of free-spirits on the roads to seek a “newer world,” to seek the meaning of
what one persistent blogger on the subject has described as the search for the
great blue-pink American Western night.”
“Naturally to keep its first
purpose intact this heaven-bound vehicle is left its mustard yellow body
surface underneath but over that primer the surface has been transformed by
generations (generations here signifying not twenty-year cycles but trips west,
and east) of, well, folk art, said folk art being heavily weighted toward
graffiti, toward the psychedelic day-glo splashes and zodiacally meaningful
symbols. And the interior. Most of those
hardback seats that captured every bounce of childhood have been ripped out and
discarded who knows where and replaced by mattresses, many layers of mattresses
for this bus is not merely for travel but for home. To complete the “homey”
effect there are stored, helter-skelter, in the back coolers, assorted pots and
pans, mismatched dishware and nobody’s idea of the family heirloom china, boxes
of dried foods and condiments, duffle bags full of clothes, clean and unclean,
blankets, sheets, and pillows, again clean and unclean.
Let’s put it this way, if
someone wants to make a family hell-broth stew or a made up bed there is nothing
in the way to stop them. But also know this, and know it now, as we start to
focus on this journey that food, the preparation of food, and the desire,
except in the wee hours when the body craves something inside, is a very
distant concern for these “campers.” If food was what you desired in the
foreboding 1960s be-bop traveling night you took a cruise ship to nowhere or a train (if you
could find one), some southern pacific, great northern, union pacific, and
worked out your dilemma in the dining car. Of course, no heaven-send, merry
prankster-ish yellow brick road school bus would be complete without a high-
grade stereo system to blast the now obligatory “acid rock” coming through the
radiator practically.”
After we settled in at our
campsite, the Flip-Flop Kid (and the guy really could never make up his mind
about anything, anything except don’t go too close to Big Bang Jane, no kidding
around on that), Bopper Billy (who really thought he was king of the be-bop
night, but, hell in the North Adamsville corner boy night Frankie Riley, hell,
maybe even Markin, would have out be-bopped him for lunch and had time for a
nap), Big Bang Jane (guess what that referred to, and she gave herself that
nickname, but I never tried to make a move on her because she was just a little
too wild, a little too I would have to keeping looking over my shoulder for me
then, probably later too when things got even looser. And then there was the
Flip-Flop Kid’s warning ), and Sweet Pea (and she was a sweet pea, if Bopper
Billy, wasn’t around, well we both agreed there was something there but in
those 1966 days we were still half tied up with the old conventions of not
breaking in between a guy and his girl, well that was the convention anyway and
whether it was generally honored or not, I did) we headed over once we heard
the vibes from the sound system churning out some weird sounds, something like
we had never heard before. (Weird then, little did we know that this was the
wave of the future, for a few years anyway).
Naturally, well naturally
after the fact, once we learned what the inhabitants of the bus were about,
they invited us for supper, or really to have some stew from a big old pot
cooking on a fireplace that came with the place. And if you didn’t want the hell-broth
stew then you could partake of some rarified dope. No, again, no on the LSD
thing. It was around, it was around on the bus too, among its various denizens,
but mainly it was a rumor, and more of a West Coast thing. In the
self-proclaimed, tribal self-proclaimed Summer of Love and after that is when
the acid hit, and when I tried it, but not on this trip. This trip was strictly
weed, hemp, joint, mary jane, marijuana, herb, whatever you wanted to called
that stuff that got you high, got you out of yourself, and got you away from
what you were in North Adamsville, Mechanicsville or whatever ville you were
from, for a while.
So that night was the
introduction to the large economy size search for the freedom we all, as it
turned out, were looking for. I remember saying to Sweet Pea as we went back to
our campsite (and wishing I wasn’t so square about messing with another guy’s
girl, and maybe she was too, maybe wishing I wasn’t so square about it) that we
had turned a corner that night and that we had best play it out right then for
the chance might not come again.
The next day, no, the next
night because I had spent the day working up to it, I became “Far-Out” Phil, or
the start of that Phil. Frankly, to not bore you with a pipe by pipe description
of the quantity of dope that I smoked (herb, hashish, a little cocaine, more
exotic and hard to get then than it became later) or ingested (a tab of
mescaline) that day, I was “wasted.”
Hell I am getting “high” now just thinking about how high I was that
day. By nightfall I was ready for almost anything as that weird music that
crept up your spine got hold of me. I just, as somebody put a match to the wood
to start the cooking of a tonight pot of stew to keep us from malnutrition,
started dancing by myself. Phil Larkin, formerly foul-mouthed Phil, a cagy,
edgy guy from deep in corner boy, wise guy, hang-out guy, never ask a girl to
dance but just kind of mosey up world started dancing by myself. But not for
long because then he, me, took that dance to some other level, some level that
I can only explain by example. Have you ever seen Oliver Stone’s film, The Doors, the one that traces the
max-daddy rocker of the late 1960s night, Jim Morrison’s career from garage
band leader to guru? One of the scenes at one of the outdoor concerts, in a
canyon somewhere I think, had him, head full of dope, practically transformed
into a shaman. Yah, one of those Indian (Markin: Native American, Phil]
religious leaders who did a trance-dance. That was me in late May of 1966, if
you can believe that.
And see, although I wasn’t
conscious of it first I was being joined by one of the women on the bus,
Luscious Lois, whom I had met, in passing, the night before. This Lois, not her
real name, as you can tell not only were we re-inventing ourselves physically
and spiritually but in our public personas shedding our “slave names” much as
some blacks were doing for more serious reasons than we had at the time.
[Markin: Nice point, Phil, although I already ‘stole’ that point from you
before.] Her real name was Sandra Sharp,
a college girl from Vassar who, taking some time off from school, was “on the
bus” trying to find herself. She was like some delicate flower, a dahlia maybe,
like I had never encountered before. I won’t bore you with the forever have to
tell what she looked like thing because that is not what made her, well,
intriguing, maddeningly intriguing, like some femme fatale in a crime noir film that Markin, from what I can
gather, is always running on about. She
was pretty, no question, maybe even a dark-haired, dark-eyed beauty if it came
to a fair description in the light of day but what made her fetching,
enchanting, if that is a different way to say it, was the changes in her facial
expressions as she danced, and danced provocatively, dance half-nakedly, around
my desire. And I danced, shedding my shirt although I do not remember doing so,
and also danced half-naked around her desire. Then, faintly like a buzz from
some hovering insect, maybe a bee, and then more loudly I kept hearing the
on-lookers, half-mad with dope and with desire themselves, yelling far out, far
out. And Far-Out Phil was born.
Oh, as for Luscious Lois and
her desire, well, you figure it out. I might not have been wise to the ways of
the Vassar world in those days when such places were bastions to place the
young women of the elite and keep them away from clawing upstarts from the
corner boy night as I should have been but the rest of my time on the bus was
spend hovering around Lois, and keeping other guys away. I even worked some plebeian “magic” on her
one night when I started using certain swear
words in her ear that worked for me with every Sunday at Sacred Heart
Catholic Church, Millie Callahan, back in the day. Far-Out Phil got a little
something extra that night, proper Vassar girl or not.
No offense against Iowa, well
only a little offense for not being near an ocean, I think. No offense against
the university there, well only a little offense for not being Berkeley but
after about a week of that campsite and its environs I was ready to move on and
it did not matter if it was with Flip-Flop and his crowd or with Captain Crunch
(the guy who “led” his merry pranksters, real name, Samuel Jackman, Columbia,
Class of 1958 who long ago gave up searching, searching for anything, and just
hooked into the idea of taking the ride). Captain Crunch, as befitted his
dignity (and since it was “his” bus paid for out of some murky deal, probably a
youthful drug deal, from what I heard), was merely the “leader” here.
The driving was left to
another, older guy. This driver was not
your mother-sent, mother-agent, old Mrs.
Henderson, who prattled on about keep in your seats and be quiet while she is
driving (maybe that, subconsciously, is why the seats were ripped out long ago
on the very first “voyage” west) but a very, very close imitation of the
god-like prince-driver of the road, the ‘on the road” pioneer, Neal Cassady,
shifting those gears very gently but also very sure-handedly so no one noticed those bumps (or else was so
stoned, drug or music stoned, that those things passed like so much wind). His
name: Cruising Casey (real name, Charles Kendall, Haverford College Class of ’64, but just this minute,
Cruising Casey, mad man searching for the great American be-bop night under the
extreme influence of one Ken Kesey, the max-daddy mad man of the great search
just then). And Cruising was, being just a little older, and about one hundred
years more experienced, was also weary, very weary of co-eds, copping dope and,
frankly, staying in one place for so long. He also wanted to see his girlfriend
or his wife I am not sure which in Denver so I knew that was where we were
heading. So off we go, let’s get going.
And the passengers. Nobody
from the Flip-Flop Express (although Flip-Flop, as usual lived up to his name
and hemmed and hawed about it), they were heading back east, back into the dark
Mechanicsville night. I tried, tried like hell, to get Sweet Pea to come along
just in case the thing with Lois fell apart or she took some other whim into
her head. See, re-invented or not, I still had some all-the angles boyhood rust
hanging on me. We knew for sure that Casey was driving, and was still driving
effortlessly so the harsh realities of his massive drug intake had not hit yet,
or maybe he really was superman. Others whose names I remember: Mustang Sally
(Susan Stein, Michigan, Class of 1959, ditto on the searching thing), Captain
Crunch’s girlfriend, (although not exclusively, not exclusively by her choice,
not his, and he was not happy about it for lots of reasons which need not
detain us here). Most of the rest of the “passengers” have monikers like Silver
City Slim, Penny Pot (guess why), Moon Man, Flash Gordon (from out in space
somewhere, literally, as he told it), Denver Dennis (from New York City, go
figure), and the like. They also had real names that indicated that they were
from somewhere that had nothing to do with public housing projects, ghettos or
barrios. And they were also, or almost all were, twenty-somethings that had
some highly-rated college years after their names, graduated or not). And they
were all either searching or, like the Captain, were at a stage where they were
just hooked into taking the ride.
As for the rest. Well, no one
could be exactly sure, by the time the bus approached the outskirts of Denver,
as this was strictly a revolving cast of characters depending on who was
hitchhiking on that desolate back road State Route 5 in Iowa, or County Road 16
in Wyoming, and desperately needed to be picked up, or face time, and not nice
time with a buzz on, in some small town pokey. Or it might depend on who
decided to pull up stakes at some outback campsite and get on the bus for a
spell, and decide if they were, or were not, on the bus. After all even all-day
highs, all-night sex, and 24/7 just hanging around listening to the music is
not for everyone. And while we had plenty of adventures on those strange day
roads winding up the crest of the rockies to Denver, thinking back on it now,
they all came down to drugs, sex, and rock and roll, with a little food on the
side.
Well, except that one time,
camping on a primitive clearing, not really a campsite, not a commercial site,
no way, near ranch land in some Wyoming
Podunk we got the hell scared out of us by some ranchers, some nasty-looking
cowboys. Three or four but that was all it took, if you to want to know the
truth, who moseyed (and that is exactly the right word because this was THEIR
god’s country and moseying was just exactly the way you moved when that hard
fact is involved. No city scratching and scrambling to claim your little
corner, not for these boys). We could see they were armed, armed to the teeth,
not on the off-hand chance they would run into some merry prankster dangers,
but carrying that full array of armament was just their normal work conditions,
god’s country or not.
This was one time that
Captain Crunch really showed his mettle, and acted as an upfront leader. Most
of the time he was in a running battle with Mustang Sally over who she was, or
was not, sleeping with or just controlling the action of the bus indirectly.
One maneuver was to always, always, slip off to Cruising any questions about
where we were headed or could we stop here or there to see some long lost
friend, some scenic view or any one of a thousand things that come up on a
prankster trip, or as I found out later even a square’s kiddies –laden family
trip. Straight up Captain, who was not skinny guy and was probably pretty well built
before he started his prankster gag although there was some sag now, yelled at
the top of his lungs, “You, boys hungry?, We’ve got plenty of stew if you
are.” Well, for always lean times,
eating from the hip, cowboys the idea of
having plenty to eat right there in front of you must have been
appealing. But the lead cowboy, Joe Bob Buck, was his name, I swear, said in
that slow drawl Sam Shepard way, “Nope, but we heard that you guys had some
decent dope. Is that straight?” Well, of course that was straight. And in a
flash a big pipe of the Captain’s finest was heading Joe Bob’s way. Hey, I
guess this was a dope story after all so, yah, I guess it did all come down to
just drugs, sex, and rock and roll. But if you want to know what the sixties
were all about then just think about a clan of hippies sharing a pipe of high
grade Panama with some lonesome cowboys out in Podunk Wyoming and who thought
nothing of it and you have got the
idea.
Oh, sure, we also had our
share of “casualties” of war and basket cases on that trip. It wasn’t all
cowboy peace and rockies vistas. I remember, more than once, we had to leave
people behind in various emergency rooms suffering from anything from a “bad
trip” to normal medical problems or make
that call home that spelled the end for some half-dazed kid. Come pick up the wreckage, mom and dad. The worst was some poor bedraggled girl, who
probably should not have been allowed to stay because she was a little wacky
coming in, who we picked up near some rural bus stop. Captain had a big heart
on this “on the bus” question, and unless you proved to be some kind of thief,
or something like that you stayed if you wanted to. Anyway this young woman,
hardly more than a girl, just started screaming one day, no drugs involved that
we knew of , just started screaming and even Captain and Sally couldn’t stop
her. We left her in Cheyenne but like a
lot of things from that transient time I never did find out what happened to
her. Just like some people can’t live in
the high altitudes not everybody could survive on the bus. Living out on edge
city, and no question we all were, maybe not 24/7 but enough to know that city
was our home, is a high wire act and not for the faint of heart.
We, the core of Captain
Crunch’s crew anyway, stayed in Denver for a while, for as long as it took
Cruising to have his fill (his word) of his wife, or girlfriend, or maybe both
and was ready to hit the road again. As fall approached the time was the time
and we started heading west again, well southwest because Cruising did not want
to get catch up in some Rockies whiteout and the rest of us wanted to get the
warmth of some desert sun under our skins. Most, including me who had never
been west of New York City and then just for a moment, had never seen the desert
although we all, children of the television 1950s, had ‘seen’ it on the screen
in the Westerns. So we were all pumped for desert stones, desert “stones,” and
seeking the ghost of the lost tribes, the lost tribes whose shamanic powers has
us in thrall. I, personally, was looking forward to investigating some ghost-
dancing that I had heard about in Denver and which, as I became more
drug-steady, I was dying to “see” a vision of off some wayward canyon wall
before some blazing fire.
And so Cruising did his merry
prankster bus magic (he really was some zen master with that damn bus,
especially for a college guy, and especially when we hit some tough spots where
the damn thing would give out and he would “breathe” live back into the thing,
like, well, like some zen master). A one
time example will suffice. We were heading to Gallup, New Mexico in the heart
of Indian country [Markin; Native American, Phil], maybe fifty miles away and
not really close to anything like a full service gas station, when the clutch
seized, just seized. Nada, nunca, nada, nothing as we used to say in our corner
boy days. Cruising gets out, opens the hood, fools around with this and that
and maybe forty-five minutes later we are on the road again. And whatever he
did, whatever zen thing he had with that fickle bus lasted all the way until we
hit La Jolla and he had the whole thing worked on. Magic. Captain Crunch mapped
out our itinerary and the rest of us got the bus travel-ready, travel-ready
being a good cleaning, a re-ordering of the mattresses, and a checking out (and
chucking off) of what was necessary and
what was not for the trip westward, westward down to New Mexico first.
The desert was all that it
was cracked up to be except, being fall it wasn’t as hot as Cruising said it
was when he went through various times in the early or late summer (mid-summer,
as I later found out, forget about even in the cooler high desert, low desert,
Death Valley desert, forget it), the Grand Canyon magnificent, if overused even
then and then the high desert in California. By then I was getting homesick, no
not homesick for North Adamsville (that would not come until many, many years
later), but for my homeland, the sea. I hadn’t been away from an ocean breeze
for that long ever and I missed it. And out in that high desert, high Joshua
Tree, Twenty-Nine Palms desert I started to “smell” the ocean. By this time I
had some “rank” on the bus, some say in what we did, or didn’t do, and the
Captain liked me, or liked the idea that a working- class kid with some brains
and some thoughts (mostly stuff “cribbed” from what Markin use to talk about in
those sometimes long, seemingly boring Salducci’s corner boy nights but it went
over, if you can believe that) was traveling alongside him. So when I started
my “campaign” to head to the ocean, and gained some allies, especially Lois,
just then, going under the name Lupe Matin, I think, and Mustang Sally and,
most importantly, Cruising didn’t raise an objection I was home free. Come on, let’s get
moving.
We wound up in La Jolla,
after a few weeks of stopping here and there to see people the Captain (or Sally) wanted to see in Los
Angeles ( I never called it LA or La-La Land then just Los Angeles, city of
angels) and down in Laguna. Needless to say the Pacific Ocean around La Jolla
and places like that made our East Coast puddles look sick. La Jolla-
translation, surfers’ paradise, says it all. But the two most important things
about La Jolla were that, after months of bus life, we finally were settled in
a “pad.” [Markin: house, in this case, or rather something like an ocean view
semi-estate owned by some wealthy drug lord known to the Captain, according to
the way Phil told it.] Real toilets, real showers, real fireplaces, real everything.
Nice, very nice for a poor old working- class boy who a few months earlier was
scratching for change to give dear mother some rent for his two by four room.
This was to be our winter quarters (and as it turned out spring ones as well)
and all we had to do was act as caretakers, not real caretakers like servants
but just make sure nobody stole the family silverware, stole the place, or
decided to “squat” there.
This is also where important
number two came in. Walking along the rock-strewn cove in front of downtown La
Jolla, is where I met Butterfly Swirl, my blonde-haired, blue-eyed angel who
was just sixteen at the time, a high school student from up in Carlsbad who was
down in La Jolla trying to “find” herself while tagging along with her
boyfriend, some eternally blonde, blue-eyed surfer guy from Del Mar, christ.
Just then said surfer boy was out looking for the perfect wave, or something,
and so I invited Butterfly Swirl (real name, Kathleen Clarke, Carlsbad High
School Class of 1968) over to La Grande (the name of the estate, hell, they all
had names like that) to smoke a little dope. She brightened at that.
Well, of course, I could see
where this was heading, if it was heading anywhere what with my one girl-one
guy rule (although I admit, admit now not then, now that I think the statute of
limitations is probably over on lying to 1967 girlfriends, I went astray a
couple of times in Denver and Joshua Tree but those weren’t really
girlfriend-worthy trysts). I brought her home, anyway. We had some dope, and
had some sex. Simple. And just when I thought I had her safely out the door
(literally and figuratively) Lupe stepped into the room. Instead of exploding
though, after checking out Butterfly with a bemused look, she said, “Is she
staying?” And before I could get word one out Butterfly chirped out, “Yes.” And
Lupe said, “Good” in a kind of distracted way. The new age has dawned, praise
be. But that was later. Then I just said
out loud to no one in particular, “Damn, women I will never figure them
out.” And I never have. [Markin: Brother Phil you are preaching to
the choir on this one.] That is why when
we headed north for the rumored summer of love in San Francisco a month or so
later I had my angel-devil girlfriends, my “family” as Captain Crunch called
them, with me.”
Now you are filled in on the
what and the why of Phil’s being on that nameless San Francisco hill mentioned
a while back. A nameless hill, nameless to first time ‘Frisco Phil, although
maybe not to some ancient Native American shaman delighted to see our homeland,
the sea, out in the bay working it way to far-off Japans. Or to some Spanish
conquistador, full of gold dreams but longing for the hills of Barcelona half a
world away. Right then though a tall young man, well taller than Phil, lanky,
maybe not as lanky as Phil with his drug stews diet having taken some pounds
off, and some desire for pounds as well, dressed in full “hippie” regalia (army
jacket, blue jeans, bandana headband to keep his head from exploding, striped
flannel shirt against the cold bay winds, against the cold bay winds even in
summer, and nighttime colds too, and now that we are on the West Coast, roman
sandals) walked up the street that paralleled the hill the entourage was then
planted on, cast a glance as that company, nodded slightly, and then turned
around and asked to no one in particular but kind of zeroed in on Butterfly,
“Got some dope for a hungry brother?” Except for shorter hair, which only meant
that this traveler had either not been on the road very long or had just
recently caught the “finding himself” bug he could have been Phil’s brother,
biological brother.
That line, that single line,
could have been echoed a thousand, maybe ten thousand times that day along a
thousand hills (well maybe not that many in San Fran), aimed at any small clot
of like-minded spirits. And Phil sensing that just that one sentence spoke of
kindred said, “Sure, a little Columbia Red for the head, okay?” And so started
the long, well hippie long, 1960s long anyway, relationship between one Phillip
Larkin and one Joshua Breslin (a.k.a. Prince Love, although don’t hold it
against him now if you know or have seen Josh lately). And the women, of
course.
And, of course, as well was
that sense that Far Out had that he and Prince Love were kindred was based on
the way that the prince posed that first question. His accent spoke, spoke hard
of New England, not Boston but further north. And once the pipe had been passed
a couple of times and the heat of day started getting everybody a little
talkative then Josh spilled out his story. Yes, he was from Olde Saco, Maine,
born and bred, a working class kid whose
family had worked the town mills
for a couple of generations, maybe more, but times were getting hard, real hard
in those northern mill towns now that the mill-owners had got the big idea to
head south and get some cheaper labor, real cheap. So Joshua, after he
graduated from high school a few weeks before decided, on a whim (not really a
whim though), to head west and check out prospects here on the coast. Josh
finished up his story by saying, “And here I am a few weeks later sitting on
Russian Hill smoking righteous dope and sitting with some sweet ladies. [Markin:
Phil never said what his reaction to that last part was which seemed, the way
it was spoken, spoken by Phil in the re-telling, filled with menace. Girl-taking menace. Well,
old corner boy Phil menace, hell Markin menace too would have felt that way but
maybe in that hazed-out summer it just passed by like so much air.]
Everybody else giggled now
that they knew the name of this hill that they had been trying to guess the
name of for the last half hour when he blurted that out. Naturally Phil, a road
warrior now, whatever his possible misgivings, invited Josh to stay with them,
seeing as they were practically neighbors back home. Josh was “family” now, and
Butterfly seemed gladder than the others of that fact.
But enough of old-time
visions, of old time rites of passage, and of foundling dreams. Phil, and his
entourage (nice word, huh, no more girlfriend solo, or as here paired, lovingly
paired, to be hung up about, just go with the flow). Phil, Butterfly, hell,
even jaded Lilly Rose (formerly known as Luscious Lois in case you forgot, or
were not paying attention), and now Prince Love, are a “family,” or rather part
of the Captain Crunch extended intentional family of merry pranksters. [Markin: Small case, so as not to be confused
with their namesakes and models legendary mad man writer Ken Kesey and his La
Honda Merry Pranksters, okay] Just
yesterday they hit ‘Frisco and have planted their de rigueur day-glo bus in the environs of Golden Gate Park after many months on the road west, and some
sitting down time down south in La Jolla. Hearing the siren call buzzing all
spring they have now advanced north to feast on the self-declared Summer of
Love that is guaranteed to mend broken hearts, broken spirits, broken rainbows,
broken china, and broken, well broken everything. The glue: drug, sex, and rock
‘n’ roll, although not just any old-timey be-bop fifties rock and roll but what
everybody now calls “acid” rock. And acid, for the squares out there, is
nothing but the tribal name for LSD that has every parent from the New York
island to the Redwood forests, every public official from ‘Frisco to France,
and every police officer (I am being nice here and will not use the oink word)
from Boston to Bombay and back, well, “freaked out” (and clueless). Yes, our
Phil has come a long way from that snarly wise guy corner boy night of that old
town he lammed out from (according to his told story) just about a year
ago.
Or had he? Well, sure Phil’s
hair was quite a bit longer, his beard less wispy and more manly, his tattered
work boots and later Chuck Taylor sneakers transformed into sensible (West
Coast ocean sensible) roman sandals and his weight, well, his weight was way
down from those weekly bouts with three-day drug escape, and fearful barely
eaten four- in-the-morning open hearth stews, and not much else. And as he sat
on that Russian Hill looking out into that bay with his brood he could not even
look forward, as he originally planned, to the expectation of just trying LSD
for the hell of it in ‘Frisco, having licked it (off a blotter), or drank it
(the famous, or infamous, kool-aid fix), several times down in La Jolla. In
those lazy hazy days watching the surf (and surfers) splashing against the
Pacific world with blond-haired, blue-eyed, bouncy Butterfly, and the raven-haired,
dark as night-eyed Lilly Rose, or both listening to the music fill the night
air. Not square music either (anything pre-1964 except maybe some be-bop wild
piano man Jerry Lee Lewis, or some Chicago blues guitar fired by Muddy Waters
or microphone-eating Howlin’ Wolf), but
moog, boog, foog-filled music.
Just that Russian Hill minute
though, and to be honest, while in the midst of another acid trip (LSD, for the
squares just in case you forgot), Phil sensed that something had crested in the
approaching blue-pink Pacific night and that just maybe this scene would not
evolve into the “newer world” that everybody, especially Captain Crunch, kept
expecting any day. Worse now that he knew that
he couldn’t, no way, go back to some department store clerk’s job, some
picket-fenced white house with dog, two point three children, and a wife what
was to happen to him when Butterfly, Lilly Rose, Joshua, and even Captain
Crunch “find” themselves and go back to school, home, academic careers, or
whatever. For now though he would just take it all in.
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