***Entering North Adamsville
High, 1960-For The Atlantic Junior High School (yah, yah I know Middle School)
Class Of 1960
A YouTube film clip of Mark
Dinning performing his teen tear-jerker, Teen Angel to set an
"appropriate" mood for this post.
This is another Frankie Riley story,
my old junior high school buddy, a companion sketch to last week’s Frankie’s Atlantic Summer’s Day story.
This is the way Frankie told me the story one sunny afternoon so once again it
is really a Frankie story that I want to tell you about but around the edges it
could be my story, or your story for that matter:
Funny, there Frankie was, finally,
finally after what seemed like an endless heat-waved, eternal August dog day’d,
book-devoured summer. Standing, nervously standing, waiting with one foot on
the sturdy granite-chiseled steps, ready at a moment’s notice from any
teacher’s beck and call, to climb up to the second floor main entrance of old North
Adamsville High (that’s in Massachusetts for those non-Red Raiders who may
stumble across this sketch). An entrance flanked by huge concrete spheres on
each side, which were made to order for him
to think that he too had the weight of the world on his shoulders that sunny
day. And those doors, by the way, as if the spheres were not portentous enough,
were also flanked by two scroll-worked concrete columns, or maybe they were gargoyle-faced,
his eyes were a little bleary just then, that gave the place a more fearsome
look than was really necessary but that day, that day of all days, every little
omen had its evil meaning, evil for Frankie that is.
Here Frankie was anyway, pensive
(giving himself the best of it, okay, nice wrap-around-your soul word too,
okay), head hanging down, deep in thought, deep in scared, get the nurse fast,
if necessary, nausea-provoking thought, standing around, a little impatiently
surly as was his “style” (that “style” he had picked up a few years previously in elementary
school over at the old Quincy School over on Newbury Street, after seeing James
Dean or someone like that strike the pose, and it stuck). Anyway it was now
about 7:00 AM, maybe a little after, and like I said his eyes had been playing
tricks on him all morning and he couldn’t seem to focus, as he waited for the
first school bell to sound on that first Wednesday after Labor Day in the year
of our lord, 1960.
Should have been no big deal, right?
We had all done it many times before by then so it should have been easy. Year
after year, old August dog days turned into shorter, cooler September come
hither young wanna-be learner days. Nothing to get nervous about, nothing to
it. (Did I say that already?) Especially the first day, a half day, a “gimme”
day, really, one of the few out of one hundred and eighty, count ‘em, and
mainly used for filling out the one thousand and one pieces of paper about who
you were, where you lived, and who you lived with. Yeah, and who to call in
case you took some nasty fall in gym trying to do a double twist-something on
the gym mat, and trying to impress in the process some girl over on the other
side of the gym with your prowess, hoping she is not looking just then if you
falter.Or a wrestled double-hammer lock grip on some poor, equally benighted
fellow student that went awry like actually had happened to Frankie the
previous year in eighth grade. Hey, they were still talking about that one in
the Atlantic Junior High locker rooms at the end of the year, I heard.
More ominously, they wanted that
information so that if you crossed-up one, or more, of your mean-spirited,
ill-disposed, never-could-have-been-young-and-troubled, ancient, Plato or
Socrates ancient from the look of some of them, teachers and your parents (meaning
embarrassed, steaming, vengeful Ma really, not hard-working-could-not-take-the-time-off
Pa, in our neighborhoods) needed to be called in to confer about “your
problem,” your problem that you would grow out of with a few days of after
school “help.” Please.
That “gimme” day (let’s just call it
that okay) would furthermore be spent reading off, battered, monotone homeroom
teacher-reading off, the one thousand and one rules; no lateness to school
under penalty of being placed in the stocks, Pilgrim-style; no illness absences
short of the plague, if you had it, not a family member, and then only if you
had a (presumably sanitized) doctor’s note; no cutting classes to explore the
great American day streets at some nearby corner variety store, or mercy, the Downs,
one-horse Norfolk Downs also under severe penalty; no (unauthorized) talking in
class (but you could bet your last dollar they would mark it down if you did
not “authorize talk,” Jesus); no giving
guff (yeah no guff, right) to your teachers, fellow students, staff, the
resident mouse or your kid brother, if you had a kid brother; and, no writing
on walls, in books, and only on occasion on an (authorized) writing pad.
Continuing rule-ward; get this one, neither Frankie nor I could believe this one
over at Atlantic, no cutting in line for the school lunch. The school lunch,
Christ, as poor as Frankie’s and my families were we at least had the dignity
not to pine for, much less cut in line for, those beauties: the American chop
suey done several different ways to cover the week, including a stint as
baloney and cheese sandwiches, I swear. Moving along; no off-hand rough-necking
(or just plain, ordinary necking, either); no excessive use of the “lav” (you
know what that is, enough said), and certainly no smoking, drinking or using
any other illegal (for kids) substances.
Oh, yeah, and don’t forget to
follow, unquestioningly, those mean-spirited, ill-disposed teachers that I
spoke of before, if there is a fire emergency. And here’s a better one, in case
of an off-hand atomic bomb attack go, quickly and quietly, to the nearest
fall-out shelter down in the bowels of the old school. That’s what we practiced
over at Atlantic. Frankie hoped that they did not try that old gag at North and
have all of us practice getting under our desks in such an emergency like in
elementary school. Christ, Frankie thought (and me too when we talked about it
later) he would rather take his chances, above desk, thank you. And… need I go
on, you can listen to the rest when you get to homeroom I am just giving you
the highlights, the year after year, memory highlights.
And if that isn’t enough, the
reading of the rules and the gathering of more intelligence about you than the
FBI or the CIA would need we then proceeded to the ritualistic passing out of
the books, large and small (placing book covers on each, naturally, name, year,
subject and book number safety placed in insert). All of them covered against
the elements, your own sloth, and the battlefield school lunch room. That
humongous science book that has every known idea from the ancient four furies
of the air to nuclear fission, that math book that has some Pythagorean
properties of its own, the social studies books to chart out human progress
(and back-sliding) from stone age-cave times on up, and the precious, precious
English book (Frankie hoped that he
would get to do Shakespeare that year, he had heard that we did, we both agreed that guy
knew how to write a good story, same with that Salinger book that Frankie had said
he read during the summer). Still easy stuff though, for the first day.
Yeah, but this will put a different
spin on it for you, well, a little different spin anyway. That day Frankie felt
he was starting in the “bigs”, at least the bigs of the handful-countable big
events of his short, sweet life. That day he was starting his freshman year at
hallowed old North Quincy High and he was as nervous as a kitten. He laughed at
me when I said I was not afraid of that event yelling at me “Don’t tell me you
weren’t just a little, little, tiny bit scared of the idea of going from the
cocoon-like warmth of junior high over to the high school.” He then taunted me-
“Come on now, I’m going to call you out on it. Particularly since I am one of those
Atlantic kids who, after all, had been here before, unlike you who came out of
the Germantown "projects" on the other side of town, and moved back
to North Quincy after the "long march" move to the new Atlantic Junior
High in the hard winter of 1959 so I didn’t know the ropes here at all.” I did
not take his bait, thought he was goofing.
So there they were, especially those
sweet girl Atlantics, including a certain she that Frankie was severely
"crushed up" on, in their cashmere sweaters and jumpers or whatever
you call them, were nevertheless
standing on those same steps, as Frankie and they exchanged nods of
recognition, since they were on those steps just as early as Frankie was, fretting their
own frets, fighting their own inner demons, and just hoping and praying or
whatever kids do when they are “on the ropes” to survive the day, or just to
not get rolled over on day one.
And see, here is what you also don’t
know that was causing Frankie the frets, know yet anyway. Frankie had caught
what he called Frankie’s disease. You have never heard of it, probably, and
don’t bother to go look it up in some medical dictionary at the Thomas Crane Public
Library, or some other library, it is not there. What it amounts to is the old
time high school, any high school, version of the anxiety-driven cold sweats.
Now I know some of you knew Frankie, and some of you didn’t, but he was the guy
who I told you a story about before, the story about his big, hot, “dog day”
August mission to get picnic fixings, including special stuff, like Kennedy’s
potato salad, for his grandmother. That’s the Frankie I am talking about, my
best junior high friend, Frankie.
Part of that previous story, for
those who do not know it, mentioned what Frankie was thinking when he got near
battle-worn North Quincy High on his journey to the Downs back in August. I’m
repeating; repeating at least the important parts here, for those who are
clueless:
“Frankie (and I) had, just a couple
of months before, graduated from Atlantic Junior High School and so along with
the sweat on his brow from the heat a little bit of anxiety was starting to
form in Frankie’s head about being a “little fish in a big pond” freshman come
September as he passed by. Especially, a proto-beatnik “little fish.” See, he
had cultivated a certain, well, let’s call it “style” over there at Atlantic.
That "style" involved a total disdain for everything, everything
except trying to impress girls with his long chino-panted, plaid
flannel-shirted, thick book-carrying knowledge of every arcane fact known to humankind.
Like that really was the way to impress teenage girls. In any case he was
worried, worried sick at times, that in such a big school his “style” needed
upgrading…”
And that is why, when the deal went
down and Frankie knew he was going to the “bigs” he spent that summer reading,
big time booked-devoured reading. Hey, I'll say he did, The Communist
Manifesto, that one just because old Willie Westhaver over at Atlantic
called him a Bolshevik when he answered one of his foolish math questions in a
surly manner. Frankie said he read it just because he wanted to see what old
Willie was talking about. In any case, Frankie said he was not no commie,
although he did not know what the big deal was about, he was not turning
anybody in about it in any case, and the stuff was hard reading anyway. Frankie
had also read Democracy in America (by a French guy), The Age of
Jackson (by a Harvard professor who knew Jack Kennedy and who was crazy for
old-time guys like Jackson), and Catcher InThe Rye by that Salinger guy
I mentioned before (Holden Caulfield was Frankie, Frankie to a tee).
Okay, okay I won’t keep going on but
that was just the reading on the hot days when Frankie did not want to go out, he
said after the summer- “test me on what I read, I am ready.” Here's why. He intended,
and he swore he intended to even on that first nothing day (what did I call it
before-"gimme", yeah) of that new school year in that new school in
that new decade to beat the “old Frankie,” old book-toting, girl-chasing
Frankie, who knew every arcane fact that mankind had produced and had told it
to every girl who would listen for two minutes (maybe less) in that eternal
struggle, the boy meets girl struggle, at his own game. Frankie, my buddy of
buddies, mad monk, prince among men (well, boys, anyhow) who navigated me
through the tough, murderous parts of junior high, mercifully concluded,
finished and done with, praise be, and didn’t think twice about it was going to
outdo himself. He, you see, despite, everything I said a minute ago had been “in,” at Atlantic; that arcane knowledge stuff
worked with the “ins” who counted, worked, at least a little, and I should know
since I got dragged in his wake. That day he was eager to try out his new
“style.”
See, that was why on that Wednesday
after Labor Day in the year of our lord, 1960, that 7:00 AM, or a little after,
Wednesday after Labor Day, Frankie had had Frankie’s disease. He had harped on
it so much before the opening of school that he had woken up about 5:00 AM that
morning, maybe earlier, but he said it was still dark, with the cold sweats. He
had tossed and turned for a while about what his “style”, what his place in the
sun was going to be, and he just had to get up. He said he would tell you about the opening day getting up
ritual stuff later, some other time, but right then he was worried, worried as
hell, about his “style”, or should he said was upon reflection, teenage angst
reflection, his lack of style over at Atlantic. That will tell you a lot about
why he woke up that morning before the birds.
Who was he kidding. You know what that
cold night sweats, that all-night toss and turn teen angst, boy version, was
nothing but thinking about her. That certain "she" that Frankie had kind
of sneaked around mentioning as he had been talking, talking his head off just to
keep the jitters down. While on those pre-school steps he had just seen her, seen
her with the other Atlantic girls on the other side of the steps, and so I am
going to have to say a little something about it. See, the previous school year,
late, toward the end Frankie had started talking to this Lydia Adams, yes, that
Lydia from the Adams family who had run this jagged old granite quarries town here
in North Quincy for eons and who employed my father and a million other fathers
around here and then just headed south, or someplace for the cheaper labor I
heard. This was one of the granddaughters or some such relation I never did get
it all down. And that part was not all that important anyway because what
mattered, what mattered to Frankie, was that faint scent, that just barely
perceivable scent, some nectar scent, that came from Lydia when he sat next to
her in art class and they talked, talked
their heads off.
But Frankie never did anything about
it, not then anyway although he said he had this feeling, maybe just a feeling
because he wanted things to be that way but a feeling anyway, that she had expected
me to ask her out. Asking out for junior high school students then, and for
freshmen in high school too because we didn’t have licenses to drive cars, being
the obligatory "first date" at Jimmy Jack's Shack (no, not the one of
Wollaston Boulevard, that's for the tourists and old people, the one on Hancock
up toward the Square is the one I am
talking about). Frankie said he was just too shy and uncertain to do it.
Why? Well you might as well know
right now Frankie came from the “wrong side of the tracks” in this old town,
over by the old abandoned Old Colony tracks and she, well like I said came from
a branch of the Adams family that lived over on Elm in one of those Victorian
houses that the swells are crazy for now, and I guess were back then too. That
is when Frankie figured that if he studied up on a bunch of stuff, stuff that
he liked to study anyway, then come freshman year he just might be able to get
up the nerve to ask her to go over to Jimmy Jack's for something to eat and to
listen to the jukebox after school some day like every other Tom, Dick and
Harry in this burg did.
....Suddenly, a bell rang, a real
bell, students, like lemmings to the sea, were on the move, especially those Atlantics
that Frankie had nodded to before as he took those steps, two at a time. Too
late then to worry about style, or anything else. They (we) were off to the
wars; Frankie will make his place in the sun as he goes along, on the fly. But
guess who kind of brushed against Frankie as he rushed up the stairs and gave him
one of her biggest faintly-scented smiles as they raced up those funky granite
steps. A place in the sun indeed.
********
....and a trip down memory lane.
MARK DINNING lyrics - Teen Angel
(Jean Surrey & Red Surrey)
(Jean Surrey & Red Surrey)
Teen angel, teen angel, teen angel,
ooh, ooh
That fateful night the car was
stalled
upon the railroad track
I pulled you out and we were safe
but you went running back
Teen angel, can you hear me
Teen angel, can you see me
Are you somewhere up above
And I am still your own true love
What was it you were looking for
that took your life that night
They said they found my high school
ring
clutched in your fingers tight
Teen angel, can you hear me
Teen angel, can you see me
Are you somewhere up above
And I am still your own true love
Just sweet sixteen, and now you're
gone
They've taken you away.
I'll never kiss your lips again
They buried you today
Teen angel, can you hear me
Teen angel, can you see me
Are you somewhere up above
And I am still your own true love
Teen angel, teen angel, answer me,
please
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